I felt like this for so long, but talking to him again was the best thing I have ever done. Because I don’t feel this way anymore. I know now that I love him and I always will, but I’m not in love with him anymore. I knew that when we were talking… We’re just so wrong for each other and I’m just done. For good this time. I’ve felt so much happier lately cause I’m not waiting for the guy I fell in love with anymore, cause he isn’t there anymore and I’m ok with that :)
I think for me that I’m in love with the idea of being in love. It’s so much fun to have that connection with someone and to be someone’s everything- to feel that special to someone.
The funny thing is, I’m no where near ready nor do I want a relationship right now. But I can honestly say I am genuinely happy, and I haven’t felt this way in months :)